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that's it am on the dege of breaking down, throwing my hands and giving up. have i been away for a while or what????t's more of what than where...what am ai saying. lately all has been getting to me i just want to scream and am getting so mad at everyone...damn i need some yoga or some of that shit they use to cool one down and bring peace within. maybe i should join the monks or become a Buddhist...

where am i again????

eish

women in Kenya have gone on a 7 day sex strike.....i feel for men....like heavens nope, i feel jerk, maybe it's about time women took matters into they own hands and said enough is enough. who knows maybe this could change how the government behaves.

now my question is did the prostitutes go on holiday or is business going to be a boost for the next 7 days????mmmmhhhhh.......that goes without asking because we know men in general cannot ZIP UP.....especially Kenyan men...they just a sad case.

i on the other hand shall sit back, relax and watch this whole drama unfold coz apparently the Prime Minister's wife is SUPPORTING this strike....need i say more?

nice labour day y'all

am still blank...i had a very long day and i mean it was really overstretched. Now am listening to some ill music trying to get my moods high before i go home. i cannot wait to go and just put my legs up, get cosy and read Maya Angelou..that woman speaks to my heart....hopefully i won't be too tired such that i will just sleep.

i am just wondering what today was all about, coz seriously i have done nothing sensible but download some spoken word that i shall enjoy listening to. my time is almost up here
(not in the world, but where i work) and am now wondering what next. the question doesn't bother me that much though i know if it doesn't happen soon, i shall go crazy. the next chapter shall be the main one, what happens next determines everything....my future and all

today in the morning i was thinking of all the things i want to do..you know how people write down the 'to do list' and i wondered about mine...i have always wanted to speak like a jamaican, wished i could just go to that country and live there for one year and learn their 'haffi give dem, me no go' langauge....i would probably come back crazy smoking weed and justifying how its a herb!!!!!yea right!!...don' get me wrong am down with the Jamaican brothers and sisters; sons and daughters of the Most High (igh..as they would say it); i listen to reggae also and at some point ina me life i had dreadlocks....now i have gone gothic and done mohawk to my head....



you know i have totally left the point i was driving at, but i have now also forgotten it....wow is my mind with me or did i just loose it???????

aaahhhhhhh!!!!!

i am not sure what to write today.....on my way to work i had overflowing words and since i did not take my pen and paper to write them they have since escaped. Now am sitted here on my table ain't sure what to write so as i try to figure out....have this break and thinking session with me..........thinking, thinking, thinking....are you still with me???

my boy called me yesterday and complained that i haven't written anything...i kinda get lazy at times, but life can also take its toll on one at times......

am reading 'letter to my daughter' by Maya Angelou, hopefully i get some incites some words of wisdom or just gives me an idea of what to say........

who to blame........???????

he was probably drunk or needed some cheap lay.....she was probably hungry with no money to feed herself.....they did it, she probably was paid, but cash that would not last her a night...

it might have been a rape case.........

there are consequences to every deed we do and in this case she did fall pregnant and now she be on the streets trying to feed the baby that was probably a result of a one night stand. she does not beg, but just sits there looking so lost and if you try converse with her, she acts like she don't understand you. the baby is only one month old and she is sick from the cold(it's cold season now), its immune system crapped up because the mother cannot feed it to the full for she has no means to feed herself.

I saw this woman yesterday and it got me thinking........the man who played a part in the game is somewhere living it up and moving on with his life. Sure he may not know, or he does, but chose to dismiss it.

I do not want to play a blame game, but do you blame the society, the woman or the man. Circumstances lead us to do weird, crazy, un-understable things; but we should always know that there are consequences which are equal reaction to the deed......but a pity unto the women who find themselves in such situations because it breaks my heart to see what they have to go through and how their children are going to view the world as they grow up.......

end of another week....!!!!!!!

Phwex!!!!!!!!!!! Never have i been so happy that a week is over. Feeling sleepy and wanting to just run away from the daily hassles of life is not funny...it's like having a second job.

Today is a Friday and am about to actually go home,lay back, chill as i take some green tea to re-balance my life and my internal peace. The best thing about it all is the people i have around me right now are all supportive and understanding that they are willing to put up with me. Their encouraging words have been my solid rock, though God has seen me through it all. If He could, he would probably slap me silly because this week i let life and everything else get to me.

This weekend, i shall re-organise my mind, rejuvenate my energies and move on from there.

Anyone who gets to read this page have a nice weekend.

poem of this week;
The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost.

You are the one

The first time i saw you i knew you were the one. Not until i feasted my naked eyes upon your sexy self, did my doubts of my deep love for you disappear. You make me wanna sing the song by Corrine Bailey ....' i get so breathless when you call my name....' because anytime i hear you call me, i cannot move my feet; i freeze and get weak and chills flow down through my spine and my whole body shakes. Said without a doubt, you were made for me.

A good life together, we shall have. I cherish the moments and the memories we are about to start making together. The laughters and the joys that shall come our way, the pains and heartaches that shall see us take rides towards unknown destinations. Your touch takes me high above; cloud 9 has got nothing on it. Your masculinity leaves me drooling wanting to touch every part of you and teasing every freckle of your magnificent stripes. Your skin colour brings my heart to my mouth that am speechless and i choke on every word that i want to sing to you.

As if that’s not mesmerizing enough, your inside could never have been more beautiful, that i want to know and figure out every part of you. The fresh and so clean scent leaves me wanting to lick you up and down till you say NO.

I can never have enough of you and i never will, for in love with you i have fallen. Deep as the abyss is how far my feelings for you go. The rainy and muddy days that you shall use your legs to carry me through; the sunny days that you shall protect me from skin cancer with your gorgeous body, i treasure.

Even though we have not lived with each other for long, i want you around always. My love for you shall never die, for mine you are, and yours i am.